Gone Too Soon.

I don't even know where to begin. I never thought it would ever happen.
From about the age of 11 or 12, I've worshipped Michael Jackson. This was long before the Prince days, where my mind got corrupted. Back in the young and innocent days.
I just can't believe he's gone. I always used to wonder what it'd be like to lose a celebrity such as Michael Jackson, how the world would react, how i'd take it. Praying that it happened long after i've gone.

But now it's happened. Never will forget that Friday. I watched the news in the morning, said something about Michael Jackson having a heart attack. I shrugged it off, assuming it was either a rumour, because with Michael you never know whats true or not, or I just assumed it was mild and he'd be fine.
I went on the school bus as normal, for some reason choosing to listen to Michael Jackson, when for the last 3 years, I've always listened to Prince. Anyway, got a message off Mom, which was weird. It said "Michael Jackson died"
It was one of the surreal moments, I just didn't wanna believe it. Even worse, I was on the bus so couldn't cry like I wanted to.
I sat through the whole bus trip, wanting to get to school, to drink Red Bull and be happy lol
Thank God for Emily and Ryan, they made me forget about it. Everytime we heard a MJ song that day, Emily would turn it off, or change channel.
The whole day was just shit. I still cannot believe that he died. He seemed like the type of man that would live forever. Be Invincible.

I find it the saddest though, is his family. Imagine his parents, out living their son. Elizabeth Taylor, Quincy Jones, Macaualy Culkin, Diana Ross, Lisa Marie Presley, all those closest to him, how they have to deal with losing him. All his millions of fans, and admirers of him
I'm just one of the millions affected by this. It really makes you realise just how short life is, how no one lives forever and life can end in a matter of minutes.

There's not enough words i can say in this blog to describe how much he meant to the world. So many people have said such nice things about him, it's all so sad, but great the impact he had on everyone. We've all grown up with his music. It's sad it takes his death for everyone to realise how amazing he really was.
As Elizabeth Taylor said, which broke my heart really:

"My heart ... my mind ... are broken. I loved Michael with all my soul and I can't imagine life without him. We had so much in common and we had such loving fun together. I was packing up my clothes to go to London for his opening when I heard the news. I still can't believe it. I don't want to believe it. It can't be so. He will live in my heart forever but it's not enough. My life feels so empty. I don't think anyone knew how much we loved each other. The purest most giving love I've ever known. Oh God! I'm going to miss him. I can't yet imagine life without him. But I guess with God's help ... I'll learn. I keep looking at the photo he gave me of himself, which says, 'To my true love Elizabeth, I love you forever.' And, I will love HIM forever,"

I remember the years of being obsessed with him. I used to LOVE 'The Way You Make Me Feel' and 'Thriller' I remember Mom buying a greatest hits cd of his, when I was about 13. Without realising who he even really was, only knowing what i'd heard on the news about him being a pedophile and what not, I loved every song on it. Suprisingly, I already knew most of the songs, just growing up with him in my subconciousness.
As most people who know me would guess, I quicky became obsessed. Shortly after that, was when the allegations came out about Michael Jackson molesting a young boy.
The whole year or so that this went on, I spent researching the case, reading all about it, staying up dated and defending him no matter what. I had to put up with a lot of abuse about how he's a pedo, all about his skin, plastic surgery, his eccentries. People were just so stupid, but I never gave up defending him. In my eyes, he could do no wrong, and even if he went to jail, I wouldnt think any less of him.

Anyway, I could go on forever about how much I worshipped him. I downloaded pretty much EVERY song that he ever released, I bought all his dvds, I talked about him all the time. Howver, I got to the age of 15, and discovered Prince, who sadly overtook MJ in my obsession. I never turned back after that lol.
As much as I love Prince, Michael Jackson was truly the greatest. No one will EVER replace him. There'll never be another as great as him, and in death he has truly became a legend.
He will never ever be forgotten. and his music will always be around to listen to and enjoy, just as he would have wanted.

I'm just thankful that it wasn't Prince, because I really don't think I would be able to live with that happening, no lies.

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson, i love you. :(