Monday, June 29, 2009

Grrrr.

Okay, so Michael Jackson is dead.
The world still hasn't really accepted it yet, it's still hasn't sunk in for a lot of people (me included)

Everyone is still grieving, his family, close friends, fans. Yet the media still deems it necessary that every little part of his private life is revealed to everyone.
What I mean is, even though it's not that bad yet, this will be JUST like Princess Diana. No one will ever really know exactly how he died, or why he was on drugs, or what the doctor was doing there.
His whole life was just a media circus, he was never left alone. Every move he made was followed, everything small thing he did was criticized. It;d be nice that in death, he could finally be left alone and allowed to rest in peace. He had a career of lik 40 years, that's 40 years of not being normal, never been left alone and able to do your own thing. Never wanting to just go down the street without being followed and mobbed.
No wonder the poor guy was crazy, I think most people would be a bit nutty living like that too.

All i'm saying is, I just wish that we could all leave him alone. But I know thats nto gonna happen. There's always gonna be peopel coming out with unflattering stories about Michael, making claims, and everything.
It's just sad, and annoying as a fan to have to listen to all this crap about him that I don't wanna know, when I just wanna be left alone to grieve.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Gone Too Soon.

I don't even know where to begin. I never thought it would ever happen.
From about the age of 11 or 12, I've worshipped Michael Jackson. This was long before the Prince days, where my mind got corrupted. Back in the young and innocent days.

I just can't believe he's gone. I always used to wonder what it'd be like to lose a celebrity such as Michael Jackson, how the world would react, how i'd take it. Praying that it happened long after i've gone.

But now it's happened. Never will forget that Friday. I watched the news in the morning, said something about Michael Jackson having a heart attack. I shrugged it off, assuming it was either a rumour, because with Michael you never know whats true or not, or I just assumed it was mild and he'd be fine.
I went on the school bus as normal, for some reason choosing to listen to Michael Jackson, when for the last 3 years, I've always listened to Prince. Anyway, got a message off Mom, which was weird. It said "Michael Jackson died"

It was one of the surreal moments, I just didn't wanna believe it. Even worse, I was on the bus so couldn't cry like I wanted to.
I sat through the whole bus trip, wanting to get to school, to drink Red Bull and be happy lol
Thank God for Emily and Ryan, they made me forget about it. Everytime we heard a MJ song that day, Emily would turn it off, or change channel.

The whole day was just shit. I still cannot believe that he died. He seemed like the type of man that would live forever. Be Invincible.

I find it the saddest though, is his family. Imagine his parents, out living their son. Elizabeth Taylor, Quincy Jones, Macaualy Culkin, Diana Ross, Lisa Marie Presley, all those closest to him, how they have to deal with losing him. All his millions of fans, and admirers of him
I'm just one of the millions affected by this. It really makes you realise just how short life is, how no one lives forever and life can end in a matter of minutes.

There's not enough words i can say in this blog to describe how much he meant to the world. So many people have said such nice things about him, it's all so sad, but great the impact he had on everyone. We've all grown up with his music. It's sad it takes his death for everyone to realise how amazing he really was.
As Elizabeth Taylor said, which broke my heart really:

"My heart ... my mind ... are broken. I loved Michael with all my soul and I can't imagine life without him. We had so much in common and we had such loving fun together. I was packing up my clothes to go to London for his opening when I heard the news. I still can't believe it. I don't want to believe it. It can't be so. He will live in my heart forever but it's not enough. My life feels so empty. I don't think anyone knew how much we loved each other. The purest most giving love I've ever known. Oh God! I'm going to miss him. I can't yet imagine life without him. But I guess with God's help ... I'll learn. I keep looking at the photo he gave me of himself, which says, 'To my true love Elizabeth, I love you forever.' And, I will love HIM forever,"

I remember the years of being obsessed with him. I used to LOVE 'The Way You Make Me Feel' and 'Thriller' I remember Mom buying a greatest hits cd of his, when I was about 13. Without realising who he even really was, only knowing what i'd heard on the news about him being a pedophile and what not, I loved every song on it. Suprisingly, I already knew most of the songs, just growing up with him in my subconciousness.
As most people who know me would guess, I quicky became obsessed. Shortly after that, was when the allegations came out about Michael Jackson molesting a young boy.
The whole year or so that this went on, I spent researching the case, reading all about it, staying up dated and defending him no matter what. I had to put up with a lot of abuse about how he's a pedo, all about his skin, plastic surgery, his eccentries. People were just so stupid, but I never gave up defending him. In my eyes, he could do no wrong, and even if he went to jail, I wouldnt think any less of him.


Anyway, I could go on forever about how much I worshipped him. I downloaded pretty much EVERY song that he ever released, I bought all his dvds, I talked about him all the time. Howver, I got to the age of 15, and discovered Prince, who sadly overtook MJ in my obsession. I never turned back after that lol.
As much as I love Prince, Michael Jackson was truly the greatest. No one will EVER replace him. There'll never be another as great as him, and in death he has truly became a legend.
He will never ever be forgotten. and his music will always be around to listen to and enjoy, just as he would have wanted.

I'm just thankful that it wasn't Prince, because I really don't think I would be able to live with that happening, no lies.

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson, i love you. :(

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Oh and..

Exciting news. Friday night, I finally bought my own drink from the pub without been asked for ID. *bells go off*
Yes yes, very exciting. I was so close to running out the pub yelling "I GOT AWAY WITH IT!! YESSS!"

Anyway, just thought it was necessary that I wrote that. Ooh, and we also won chocolate machine..chocolates. And then a black man flashed his dick on webcam for us that night. My eyes!
Pretty rando night really, Emily hadn't stayed at mine for like a year, with good reason as I never used to be allowed to drink and Nagambie is shit. But it does have pubs, water, and pizza. And that was enough for us two girls. :)


Sadly, no hot men though.
The Saturday was even funnier. Gotta love random days in the city. It's either, go to Melbourne, buy heaps of shit and are busy as. OR, meet randoms, spend all my money on caffine and Hungry Jacks, and just make fun of all the freaks you see in the city. We chose the latter.
For starters, all the emos are just too much to handle. They must be made fun of. Why else would they dress like freaks if they didn't expect normal people to yell out at them and make fun of their uglyness? EXACTLY.

And people either with Swine Flu, or are scared to get it. So pretty much anyone wearing masks. Everytime we walked past one, who were usually Asian, we just coughed really loud, and generally acted like idiots.
Homeless people, also hilarious. Bums asking for spare change, then lecturing us on drinking V and how it damages us. Oh please, like I need to homeless man to tell me that, I hear it enough from my own mother.


And the randoms handing out magazines. So funny, it went like this:
Man- *Hands me magazine*
Me- *Glances, keeps walking*

Man- *Looks sad, I assume*
Me-Brain kicks in, remembers what the title was, turns around* WAIT, SIGN OF THE TIMES?!
Man- *Is pleased*

Me- "Wait, this isn't a Prince album!" *chucks magazine away*

Ahh, yes. so much randomness. We also kept getting moved away from machines in Galactic Circus, because every ride..was a place for Ryan and I to make out on or near. hehe.
Oh and my memeorable caffine lows. Oh when i'm high, im high. when i'm low.. i'm low. very low.


That is a whole other blog though, I could talk for ages about the effects of caffine deprivation gives me. In fact, i've had no coffee today and i'm in a state of both confusion, and crazy typing mode. I wanna stop typing, but I can't. Maybe if I type long enough it wil stop the caffine craving. Ah fuck it, im getting a coffee.

Sailor Moon!

Okay, I really don't know why, but lately.. for some reason.. I have become obsessed with Sailor Moon.
Not just the character of Sailor Moon (Although she is amazing) the whole TV show!
I used to love it as a kid, I had Sailor Moon dolls, which I really wanna find now, and accessories, such as her crown and.. septar? thing? I dunno, but it was awesome. I also had videos of the show somewhere.
Ahh, I really do need to grow up. Little kiddy shows such as Sailor Moon, Captain Planet etc, I LOVE for some reason. The Sailor Moon thing is going a bit far though. I was almost ready to buy a Sailor Moon costume off Ebay. This is something that as a child, would have been cute, but as an..adult? OMG AM I?! Anyway, as for someone of my age, could be used as more of a seduction technique. I did a survey, and the popular choice of the question 'Should I buy a Sailor Moon costume off Ebay?" was yes.
That could have something to do with the fact that she's a little slutty, but yeah.

In conclusion, i'm seriously considering getting one. I have no idea what i'd do with it. Maybe a costume party or two, maybe use it in the bed room *WINK* or maybe even try nad get a job as a Sailor Moon impersanator! I mean come on, we look similiar...we're both blonde.. blue eyes.. freakishly long hair and thin legs.. okay that parts not true.
But i'm ditzy and out of it most of the time, like her.
Okay fine, I admit it.. I wanna be Serena :(

Anyway, i'm off to go hunt down English versions of Sailor Moon on Youtube. Watching it in Japanese is never fun.

"...fighting evil by moonlight. winning love by daylight. never running from a real fight. she is the one name sailor moon"

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Memories







I'm quite alone and bored, so as you do in this situation, I got out the old family photo albums. It was interesting. I was such a happy looking kid, and I have exactly the same Asian smile hahah :P






Anyway, it got me to thinking how young and carefree we all used to be. We knew nothing of the world, we were so innocent and lived in our own little imaginary worlds. Well I know I did haha. We didn't like boys, so no broken hearts and all the complications men bring. No bitchiness or fights with other girls. No worrying about how we look, our hair, make-up, clothes, weight. Just enjoying being a kid and living life. Ah, gotta miss it.










4th birthday. Look how happy!







That ride looked like fun!





Me and 'Santa' Despite being 2 years old, I figured out that it was in fact.. MY PA!


Busting a move.







I still sleep like that ;)





Me & My Mommy :)


Dad & I. So very young



Young Emma and I. I miss that dog :(



Friday, June 5, 2009

Lazy

Im having the most lazy day today. Well really, when aren't I lazy? It's natural for me.
But I woke up at like 10 and JUST HAD A SHOWER. Weird, for someone who is used to having showers at 6am :
Just watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall. Funny movie. The only reason I made Mom buy it was because of my crush on Russel Brand. Damn he's sexy. I dont know if it's the English accent, the eyeliner, the long hair, the tight shirts and leather pants or just because he's so charming and sex crazed, but i'm obsessed with him at the moment. And he pretty much plays himself in the movie, or so I imagine him to be.
and it has Mila Kunis in it! I love that girl! She played Jackie in That 70s Show, and I kind of have a girl crush on her too, so this movie was like perfect for me. Yeah, i'm a weirdo. Not even a lesbian but I think way too many female celebrities are hot :P
Ehh, i'm strange :)

Anyway,just thought i'd share random thoughts. I'm off to watch Just Friends. Aah, love that movie, so very quotable. And Samantha James is just my idol =)

xx

School

I dont know. Long weekend WOOO pumped :)
AND then exams.. not so pumped.
Speaking of, we had a practice exam today, The GAT, which reminds me of a gun and 50 Cent everytime someone says it. It was shit. I was so confused the whole time, which is really not unfamiliar to me. Oh, and then I finished early, like always. and Amber (my wifey) and I made up a comic. We used to do it all the time last year during our Year 11 exams.

Aaah, good times. Then have laughing fits about them, coz they're that ridicolous.
Anyway, we made an awesome one. and I was just about to pass back my extrememly hilarious addition to our comic, which involved my best friend and a very very good friend of mine hooking up and being a gay couple, when stupid MS LAWSON stole our comic :O
THEN READ IT.
Ehh, she wouldnt have got half the shit we were talking about, but I was still pissed off, because that was Myspace material. grr.

Okay apart from that,today was good. I had potato cakes :O and 2 spares, pretty much.
Nothing compares to yesterday though. Ahh, 4 spares.. does life get better?
Emily and I took full advantage of this, causing trouble down the streets of Seymour.
Then deciding sober fun wasn;t as fun. So Emily purchased us some alcohol. The poor lady at the bottle shop looked so confused. 10am, two schoolgirls buying Cruisers. hahahaa.
Sad life. Oh and then we went to the Pokies, and sat in the pub with out drinks.

I can see that being a regular occurance for me. If i'm not an alcoholic by the time i'm 30 i'll be very suprised indeed.

:)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Little survey I picked up..

1.Given one backstage pass in your life, which band would you use it for?
Motley Crue... I'd probably end up sleeping with the whole band ;)


2.Other than Rock/Metal music, what other genres of music do you listen to?Mainly RNB. and of course PRINCE.


3.If you can change spots for a day with one artist or band member, who would it be?
Vince Neil! I'd have women all over me, all the time. Okay not a good thing, but yeah, he looks like he has a lot of fun.


4.What's your favorite instrument to listen to?
Probably guitar. It's sexy.


5.What is your all-time favorite CD?
Umm.. Purple Rain =D i dont know, there's heaps.


6.What one line from a song sums up your feelings about your own life?
Hmm.. I dont know! "It's only life" haha :P

7.If you could create the perfect "superband", who would it include?
Lead- David Lee Roth
Guitar- Slash
Bass- Nikki Sixx
Drums- Rick Allen


8.Do you feel that downloading music hurts/helps the bands in regards to exposure, not financially?
I
think that it helps the band. Young kids, like myself, wouldnt even know half the bands I do if it weren't for being able to download their music.

Bold
9.What is the one band you would want to see live before you die?
The orginal Guns N Roses! Reunited! It will happen :(


10.What are the 3 greatest bands of the 80's?
Oooh.. probably Motley Crue, Gnr and Hanoi Rocks.

Bold
11.What are the 3 greatest bands of the 90's?
Poison, Bon Jovi and..I dont even know, I hate anything after the 80s :P


12.What are the 3 greatest bands of 2k?
NO.


13.If you were able to sit down with a major label and discuss their strategies for promoting and selling music, what would you advise them?
i have no idea! More tight pants, hairspray, glitter and purple. LOL.


14.Do you have a piece of music memorabilia that is "absolutely priceless" to you?
My Prince stuff is priceless. Well I could buy most of it again, but I love it =)

Bold
15.Has MySpace become the most important Internet site for music today?
Err I dont know/care


16.How many CDs have you bought in the last:a.Week - 0b.Month - 0c.Year - No Idea


17.Your preference: physical CDs or digital music?
Prefer digital only because it's more convinient, but can't go past a CD. Only because it's more personal and actually costs money :P


18.Name a relatively unknown band that you think has the best future ahead of them? I have no idea.

Bold
19.FM radio, Internet Radio, XM radio, Sirius Radio, or other as your radio of choice?
I hate you all.


20.If you got to meet your musical idol, what is the first thing you would ask him/her?
MARRY ME?!

LOL.


Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Oh and yeah.

Tee hee, I forgot to mention. I'M 18 LOSERS! (Who i'm talking to, I don't know)
I thought it was necessary to update on what exactly i've been up to since turning 18.
Well, since I don't have an 'official' ID, since i'm too lazy to get my L's, my adventures have been limited.

Take the night of my 18th for example. I went out to dinner with the family. Got to the front desk. Decided I wanted to play a bit of the old pokies (why do they call them that?!)
The nice man informed me that my little student ID, wasn't going to cut it for official ID. Luckily for me, I had my Grandma there. and no one messes with her. So she told the mean man off, informing him that it was my 18th birthday, and my card clearly states that i'm 18, with a nice picture of me. Well, not nice. I look like a blonde Asian, but anyway.
So yeah, I managed to waste like 5 bucks at the pokies. Not as fun as they look
They're all colorful and flashing, but after like 2 goes, I got over it and just wanted to keep going back to the bar.
Typical. haha.
Plus, I won nothing, AND Mom stopped me from getting more drinks. :(

My second adventure took place on the night of my party. Okay the whole night was one big advednture. Me and Emily, being us, started drinking before the party, and turned up tipsy.
Emily and Amber made up, which made no sense at the time, as they;'d been fighting all week, and the school counselor had to talk to us earlier that day. Wasn't fun, as not only did she threaten Emily with suspension, she questioned our soberiety!


Anyway, the night was fun, until people disappeared. Amber and I ended up running down the main road, Pulse cans open, holding hands, then bailing on Ryan and Colin. I got punished by running into a brick fence. It hurt.
Oh, and not to mention our big sing along to Queen. Thats like the only soundtrack of the night.

Liek most parties, a lot of dancign and sleaziness, from me of course. Emily and I talking to a guy, discovering he was 16 and running off calling ourselves pedos.
Then ending up down the street, eating the best cheeseburger ever from the BP ( I LOVE THAT PLACE) then at Goulbourn Park, falling over drunkingly.. a lot.

Ahh, memories.

Oh. and in true Laura fashion, the night ended with me throwing up and forgetting how to turn on a shower :) Thank God for my wife.


18's not all it's said to be when you don't have ID. My God, that should be a song!
I really need to get my L's. Or, do the smart, lazy thing and pay $50 to get a Government approved card..thing. Because I don;t know how much longer I can last without going to Melbourne and running into the nearest club/pub/bar/strip..place and getting crunk.
and I can't expect Emily to do it all by herself!

It was bad enough on Saturday, the night of Emilys party, when we took the big step and went into the bottle shop to buy drinks. Well.. I unfortunately had to give money to Emily to buy mine. It felt like being 17 again! :(
Then the man questioned my age!
Why oh why do I look about 15 or 16!!! :(
Grr, life.

Anyway, another pointless blog for no one except me to enjoy.
One day when I have my ID, I will look back at this and just laugh.
Hopefully.

Off to convince parents to sign some forms so I can get my ID! :)
wish me luck

xx

AHH!

Hmm okay, so I was supposed to be writing in this a lot, but I kind of forgot I had it, and now i'm bored and feel like TYPING :) so yeah.
I have recently learnt that people have been going around my town wearing masks to protect themselves from Swine Flu. WTF?
I'm really confused as to why Swine flu is even that bad. No one will explain it to me!

It sounds exactly like normal flu, just with a cooler name. Oh and the 'pig' influence.
I can handle normal flu.. i'm doing it right now. Well kind of.

Truthfully, I have Glandular Fever, and it's not fun.
Yes, I know it's called something like the 'kissing disease' yes hahaha very funny, everyones told me. I don't kiss people! :
How did I get this! But yeah, apparently there's no drugs I can take to help, which shocks me. Drugs help everything!

Some advantages to being sick, are obviously sympathy and attention, both of which I love.
I also get one day off school a week, because according to my doctor, it's impossible for me to concentrate, and i'd have severe fatigue.
Considering most of the time i'm barely even with it, and pretty much always fatigued until I have caffine.
AND I HAVEN'T HAD COFFEE IN TWO WEEKS.

There's obvious disadvantages, such as my low tolerence for some of my favourite things... food, alcohol and Red Bull.
But i'm powering through!
I force myself to eat, I force Red Bull in my mouth, only because without it... I die.
and Saturday night, Emily forced me to drink! Well, is it really forcing if I WANTED it? Is it really rape if I enjoyed it? Hmm... questions..

Anyway, way off topic. In conclusion to this random blog, Swine Flu is stupid, and knowing my luck, i'll probably end up getting it AFTER I get rid of Glandular Fever. :) woo looking foward to being sick all year again.

Peace ;)